Today's Update

It was eighteen plus years ago when I started working at the company I am now leaving. It was another eighteen years that I worked at the company previous to coming here. I guess "eighteen" must be the opposite of my lucky number.

In any event, when the previous company I worked for was going under, I felt frantic. I had three little kids to feed, clothe and keep warm, and a house we had bought just six or seven years earlier. I wasn't sure what to do. With the ups and downs of the economy, I had come close to being laid off several times, but I had always dodged the bullet. But with the place closing and despite (or maybe, because of) an offer of my position getting "redefined" and me placed in a surviving decision of that company, the inevitable rapidly approached.

I drove down to where I am now currently leaving, and over the course of a few months, secured a position for myself and security for my family. I've been here ever since.

Now this place is coming to an end and today will be my last day. Reality comes in waves, and while I'm worried, I feel like I'm not worried enough. Maybe it's because I haven't been formally handed my walking papers- which is only moments away. Maybe it's because I'm just numb. Maybe it's because I've gone through this before- despite it being so long ago.

I suspect that once I leave, the panic and concern will come back in waves. And I'm sure all of this will continue to be a roller coaster in the days, months, and maybe even in the years to come.

So basically... life as usual.

Me and the guys in happier times.